{E}motions

They say redheads have tempers.  Supposedly being an Aries doesn't help either.  LOL!
This will be a bit of an emotional blog.  I've had many moments lately when I have felt out of control;  Growling at co-workers for screwing up for the 10th time, feeling the urge to cry at the drop of a hat, feeling love beyond words and heartache that is only consoled by sleep.  I can only chalk all of this up to the irony of getting off of my birth control pills.  It amazes me to think of how smoothly things rolled off my back and how "robot-like" my emotions were.  Anger, love and other feelings were there, but lingered under the surface...never quite getting the chance to breathe.  Well, the rains have gone and the fire is blazing. :)  I find myself proud at moments when I am able control my emotions and reactions.  Disappointment quickly setting in when I flare up and guilt follows.  It probably sounds like I've stabbed someone or at least pressed the button to launch a nuclear attack.  Nah...these are little moments.  The ones I should really be able to control.  The ones I HOPE to control.  This way I can move on to bigger and better things.
On the other hand...I have never loved with more of my heart than I do now.  Honest, honest.
I suppose that within the depth of a heart, you may find the something of hell or heaven.  Even greater, I think the crime here would be to NOT love as deeply as I could;  To mask my emotions and react mechanically throughout the day.....
Well, here's to being a Ginger...embracing my emotions and tenderly loving each moment as it happens....with or without the growling...LOL! :)